Since the last time....

My, what an interesting roller coaster is this life thing.

Since last time...

Winnipeg. *sigh* For work... 6 days/5 nights of the worst hotel in the worst city (my opinion only) on the planet. I *do* wish they'd move head office to somewhere more civilized! And to top off the loneliness of being away from home, I didn't feel well the entire time - so going out was kinda out of the question... which leads me to...

Pregnant... again. Found out the day after I got home. Weeee... now for the waiting. HCG tests, ultrasound in 2 weeks which leads me to...

THE WORST ULTRASOUND CLINIC IN THE UNIVERSE!!!!! The tech was HORRIBLE - at 6 weeks, trans-vaginal is the only way to find anything... instead (and inspite of positive and rising HCG bloodtests) I am told that "I'm NOT pregnant because she can't find anything". This was a Monday. Sigh... leading me to....

Wednesday. Felt ill. Called clients to cancel meetings 'cause I was feeling feverish and morning sicknessish. Got a phone call from my Dr. at noon - she wanted me to go in for yet ANOTHER blood test and a proper ultrasound at RCH. YAY! Blood tests!!! *sigh*.... which lead to...

Another ectopic pregnancy - fraternal twins this time (2 embryonic sacs). Emergency surgery an hour or so later. Overnight in the hospital. Yucky horrible emotional roller coaster - hey, isn't that where we started?

The surgeon was able to save the tube - I suppose that will mean another internal x-ray to determine whether or not it's open *enough* to consider trying to get pregnant the old fashioned way again. I dunno. Maybe we should just find the money for IVF? At least then the embryo(s) will land in the right spot?

It's been 6 days and I'm no closer to an answer that's right for me. I don't want to risk my life anymore - but we still do want to have a baby. Shouldn't be this hard, should it?