Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Is personal the same as important?

Terry Pratchett is my hero - I think I may have mentioned this once or twice before. I was re-reading one of his stories the other day and came across a sentiment that struck a chord - "Personal is not always the same as important".

My heart hurts. My head hurts. I need to get a job. I need to be back on the mainland. I very much need to see you more often than a few weekends here and there. Personal? Yes. Important? Yes - to me.

I was reminded the other night, as I moaned about my job and how much I'd like to just LEAVE that I am, in fact, a monkey. I need to have the other branch in sight before letting go of the one I'm holding onto. PLEASE, other branch, hurry up - I'm losing my grip!

So what to do? Trust the universe, let go of this job, put my house on the market and just hope? Or be sensible, find employment, then hope everything else falls into place when I need it to? Any advice? Even ass-vice will do :)

I know I'm angst-wanking. That's where I am right now. So - I put it to you... is personal the same as important? Sometimes, I think.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

More changes!

My life has taken on a tone. That tone is of change. It's a good thing.

I'm trying to move back to the mainland. THAT means new job, selling house, buying house, disappointing Dad ('cause he REALLY wants to live here) and an amazing side-effect of being closer to those I Love.

It's a good thing.

This year will be happy and new. Last year is gone now... and I am happy to see it go. Last year was a very difficult one - probably depression (undiagnosed... adn it lead to better things that I'll talk about in a minute) deaths in my close family, separation and tossing myself into a job that I will (hmm, how to put it?)not miss.

The great things that came out of all of that are a better understanding of myself through hypnosis (chortle, if you must), a connection with a special someone that seems to be leading my heart in places it hasn't been before and an eagerness for what's ahead. I'm excited. I'm excited about my life and where circumstances are leading me.